Sometimes I Feel Free

I feared the day you would leave, but in the end I knew you would.

Years passed and when you did, I felt as though I was planted in the spot where you left me.

I didn’t know how to walk on my own anymore. I was hoping you would come back and take me with you just like you always did. You would take my hand and guide me through the darkness that surrounded me. I felt safe with you by my side.

How could you walk away when I could still hear you calling out my name? I stumbled around your block a few too many times. I just wanted to find my way home but you were the only resemblance of home to me. The one place I felt safe is the place that did not exist anymore.

I felt like I was lost in some type of wonderland, where I couldn’t remember how I got there and I had no idea how to find my way out. I wanted to believe it was just a nightmare.

The breeze upon me felt a little colder and I didn’t know why I felt like it was so easy to breathe. For the longest time I had this fear within me that made me believe the only way I could ever be free was to be with you because when you and I were together, I didn’t have a worry in the world. To not have any worries and to feel like nothing could stop me was what it meant to be free in my heart.

But when you left me all alone and forced me to face the fear of you leaving, I felt like for the first time in my life, I was free.

Only my fear could set me free.